Heartstopper by Alice Oseman Review | M/M Romances #PrideLibrary19 🌈

The webcomics are free and regularly updated here!

Genre: graphic novel with lgbt main characters (m/m romance) & mental illness

Pages: 278 (vol. 1)

Synopsis

Charlie, a highly-strung, openly gay over-thinker, and Nick, a cheerful, soft-hearted rugby player, meet at a British all-boys grammar school. Friendship blooms quickly, but could there be something more…? 

Charlie Spring is in Year 10 at Truham Grammar School for Boys. The past year hasn’t been too great, but at least he’s not being bullied anymore, and he’s sort of got a boyfriend, even if he’s kind of mean and only wants to meet up in secret.

Nick Nelson is in Year 11 and on the school rugby team. He’s heard a little about Charlie – the kid who was outed last year and bullied for a few months – but he’s never had the opportunity to talk to him. That is, until the start of January, in which Nick and Charlie are placed in the same form group and made to sit together.

They quickly become friends, and soon Charlie is falling hard for Nick, even though he doesn’t think he has a chance. But love works in surprising ways, and sometimes good things are waiting just around the corner…

My thoughts

Rating out of five: five

Alice Oseman is great at telling stories in general (see “I was born for this” and “Radio silence” for more proof). Solitaire is the only book I didn’t like from her, which made me more wary going into this one since it’s a spin-off. I don’t think you need to read the novel before to fall in love with this one, but it does give more context and might make it even better. Through this novel I even got a better sense of what Oseman was trying to do with the characters of Solitaire, it was apparent that she cares for them deeply and seeing the big sister (protagonist in Solitaire) from the brother’s perspective and in graphic novel format was so endearing and made me like the book more, well no more like the characters, in hindsight.

The illustration style is both extremely cute and just informal enough. The m/m romance starts so innocent, with two teenage boys figuring themselves out and where being friends stop and flirting starts. They’re both so adorably awkward and comfortable throughout it all. Meeting through sports team has become a trope I’m really into all of a sudden this pride month (having read the amazing “Running with lions” by Julian Winters as well).

This volume and the rest of this on-going series is actually a webcomic which you can get for free at tapas here and is regularly updated by Oseman! The story only gets better (if that’s even possible) as I’ve of course read through it all straight after I was done with vol. 1 and I can’t wait to hold vol. 2 in my hands as well. I really need to get more into queer webcomics and graphic novels. Fence by C. S. Pacat is next on my list.

Feelings while reading this book: smiling from ear to ear, making sounds of cuteness overload and me physically freezing in place when someone tries bullying Charlie (like the big sister I am).

Queer Girls YA Book Recommendations #1

As a queer girl I’ve certainly read too few books where women love women (wlw). Complete reviews I’ve written are linked.

We Are Okay by Nina LaCour

  • Marin leaves her old life behind without telling anyone. She’s already chosen her college for fall, so she leaves early and stays at a run down motel until it opens. The book starts with Marin staying behind at the college dorm as everyone leaves for winter break. She’s anxiously awaiting the visit from her “old” friend Mabel and that her lives, which she’s managed to keep seperated until now, are going to clash.
  • The lesbian relationship was so cute in that they had history, both fucked up and now have no idea how to talk to each other. There’s this whole mystery about why Marin left her old life so abruptly, which it’s obvious Mabel is trying to figure out too. It slowly unfolds until it both doesn’t matter and you kind of understand it. It’s a weird feeling, but I adored it.
  • Snowed-in scenes like it’s an actual fanfic, where the couple just spends large parts of the book alone at the college

The Miseducation of Cameron Post

  • A SAD STORY, but also about being brave and sticking up for others
  • The main character is finding themselves as a lesbian, growing up in Montana
  • At one point in the story her family sends her to a religious conversion therapy camp – which I think you should be prepared for going into this book
  • Queer people bonding together and becoming friends
  • Has a movie adaption with the same name, which conveys some of the same messages, but not so in-depth and emotion as this book. For example there’s this huge betrayal that happes, wrecking Cameron Post’s life for a while, and in the movie she just seems generally depressed for a while because of her circumstances. Also the movie is worth it simply because Chlow Grace Moretz is the lead *hearteyes*.

Girl Mans Up by M-E Girard

  • Penn is 16 years old and struggling with her gender identity, especially with hanging around tougher boys that doesn’t leave her alone to figure it out. Definitely a lot of unwelcome questions and harassment about it.
  • Loves video games
  • She seems to go towards idenitifying as a butch lesbian and the parts where she’s figuring out her attraction to girls and going into her first relationship are so cute. The balance between the cute and ugly parts in this book is really special.
  • Dealing with family that doesn’t understand or accept non-hetero sexualities

Everything Leads to You by Nina LaCour

  • It’s a lovely story of a girl who works with decorating movie sets falling in love with a mystery and then the girl underneath it. 
  • Entertaining, sweet and filled with special moments

Which queer books (especially with queer girls) have you read?

First Book Reviews | Top Ten Tuesday

Top Ten Tuesday is hosted by That Artsy Reader Girl to bring bookish friends together. A new topic is posted each week.

This was a challenging prompt, because I really wanted to look at the first reviews I ever published online, back before 2015. I went digging through my goodreads, before I realized – I wasn’t actively reviewing on goodreads for quite some time. I was on a norwegian bookreview site- and so I finally found the password. I’ve been on this site for seven years, was the first thing it told me, last updated four years ago. I’ve read a couple hundred more YA books that I haven’t registered on goodreads, woow.

First books I ever rated

2012 (13 years old): 6/6 stars. I really liked The hunger games, the books were so much better than the movies. Also gave The thief lord by Cornelia Funke the same rating, but I’m not quite sure if I remember any of the plot.

First book reviews posted online:

Throne of glass by Sarah J. Maas

2015: 5/5 stars

I love how I enjoy books just to enjoy it when rereading them, since the elements of suprise is mostly gone.

“What are you doing here? It’s almost midnight, and I’ve got a Test tomorrow” I find this sentence so amusing. It’s something that could have come out of the mouth of one of my friends, not the famous 18 years old assassin. “She couldn’t deny having him here was a bit of relief- the murderer ony seemed to attack Champions when they were alone.” Okay, maybe not completely normal. The test, with campital t, she talks about is a possibly deadly fight to become the tyrant of a kings Champion and gain her freedom. Not the usual school type, even if they’re horrible too. However these two sentences kind of shows Celaena as a person and what the bok is about. She’s sweet and normal one second and plotting peoples murders the other. Not that I don’t do it too, but perhaps not as bloodthirsty or serious. All in all, I like her. She’s not jus an assassin, and it gets shown in a great way, even if I look forward to seeing her kick some more ass in the future. In spite of her jokes, girlyness and assassin-ness she’s both physically and emotionally destroyed at the beginning and barely hanging in there. She was taken right out of a labour/death camp after all… can’t say I blame her. 

The only thing I’m a little bit annoyed of is that the book and Celaena are promoted as very much assassin and battle and weapons, and even if there are a lot of that in there, the softer, more girly side and the whole mystery things should be worth mentioning. OUTSIDE OF ROMANCE. 
Will her assassin’s heart be melted? What the fuck is that? She’s already melted, and kind of in the middle of something trying to stay and act sane and figuring out this magic-mystery-stuff. It’s mostly the boys hearts that get melted and crushed and all wobbly anyway. It’s like they don’t have anything else to do. 

Why not write about the crown-prince wanting adventure and the captain of the guard who finds his heart and laughter? That would be something, but no. Well, well, I guess we’re just not there yet.

Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater

2015: 1/5 stars

How do people like this book? I’ve started out wanting to like the book and even then it turned so awful so quickly.

All fall down by Ally Carter

2015: 5/5 stars

I really liked this book! It had both ups and downs, but overall a great book with a lot of action, likeable and mysterious characters and a lot of great twists.

The plot gets a slow applause from me. A girl who no one believe when she says someone killed her mother? Brilliant. Living at a embassy? Why have I never thought of this before. Spying? Looove. The characters? Mixed feelings. The revealing of all the secrets? Ehh. Halfway into the book I could imagine the ending, but I was only halfway right. Maybe it’s because I feel like I’ve read these kind of novels before, but I wasn’t that suprised. I was more excited about what’s coming next. 

Sometimes the writing seemed kind of messy because suddenly a lot happened in a short amount of time. It happens a few times, especially at the end. I think that could have been done in a better way, but it was okay. I’ve read worse. I just had to lay the book down for a bit before trying to figure out what was really going on. I’m relieved the whole book wasn’t like that because it’s basically written to confuse and throw you off. 


“Keep your chin up. Eventually, you will meet someone who cares about your opinion. I’m so sorry I’m not her.”
― Grace


That quote is basically Grace. I love Ally Carter’s previous characters, and Grace is no exception. She’s a sarcastic, brave, spontanious, witty, creative and paranoid person. Really, she jumps off brick walls into different countries. What is there not to like? Most of all she is something I hadn’t expected: troubled. It’s a nice change and really makes sense after a while. First I thought she got panick attacks, which she does in a way, but it’s more like flashbacks. It can be a bit confusing, but makes the story more mysterious and real. Something I miss is the relationship between the characters. There are so much potential there. COME ON, they’re embassy kids. From all over the world, all different kids stuck in the same situation. But you really don’t get to hear a lot from them. Mostly because Grace is stuck in her own head, which I can understand, but I would really like to know more abut the others. I feel like they don’t get enough time and it becomes something weird. Like ghosts who follows her, but only because they’re bored.

I don’t know what to think about Noah and Grace. The russian boy I’ve already forgotten the name of. The group doesn’t really work, even though I really wanted it to. There are also a few very cheesy things, like the fine line between peace and war. I get the idea, but the conversations with her grandfather is just too much. Sometimes these things made me want to cover my eyes, but I got through it, fortunately.
I felt a little old for this book, but I know I would have thought of it as a favourite a few years ago. Anyway it was a great read and I can’t wait for the next one! 

Succubus Blues by Richelle Mead

2016: 4/5 stars

I really liked Succubus Blues. It’s an amazing and exciting easy-read. I really had my hopes up too because I usually love Richelle Mead’s books. This one didn’t disappoint! Not at all, in fact it wasn’t the sobby no-one-will-ever-love-me story I was afraid of.

Georgina Kincaid is an amazing heroine, an unusual, but welcoming mix of human and immortal succubus. Her personality seems almost split at moments, but it gives a good balance to the story. She’s working at a bookstore like a normal mortal who loves books and dancing, but also surviving by feeding on people’s life energy during sex. Something that makes being with people she likes a lot more complicated. Her group of friends (both mortal and immortal) is also awesome and so is the idea of several love interests. It’s a notch up from the usual love triangle. Everyone seems to fall for her succubus’ charm. Georgina actually reminds me of a mix between Rose (Vampire Academy) and Sage (Bloodlines). She has Rose kick-ass moments, one-liners and sexiness, but also Sage’s smart mind and more calm personality. 

My favorite of the love interests is of course Seth. He’s her favorite author, but she accidently makes herself look like a fool in front of him at their first meeting. From there’s a lot of shyness, romantic emails and drama. There are also others like Ronan, her older boss and a bunch more. But what else could you expect from someone who has lived through millennia?

The characters are for me what makes this book stand out. But the plot is interesting enough too: someone is killing off immortals. Both heaven and hell is involved in the investigation and so is Georgina. She sees it as her mission to find out who and what it is, knowing no one is safe until she does. It might sound very mystery/crime – like, but it really isn’t. There’s too much going on to have time for that kind of thing. Even if it’s a big part of the plot it’s not necessary the focus. 

I would categorize this as a paranormal/urban fantasy book. But the lack of world building and vampires who don’t seem to drink blood bothers me a little. That’s also why it gets 4 stars and not 5. A world where supernatural creatures live side by side and we don’t see anything from it other than their little group? It’s a wonderful group, don’t get me wrong, but I expect some “bigger picture” to come up in the next books. Higher/more powerful demons get mentioned, but not anything more. On the other side the ending hints about learning more about Georgina and her world. I really can’t wait for the next 5 (!) books. 

Legend by Marie Lu

2016: 5/5 stars

Legend was everything I hoped! And much more. I love it. It’s fabulously amazing with sparkle on top. Ok, maybe that’s a bit too much.
I seriously don’t know what this book has done to me, my brain is simply destroyed. And I who thought “what is all this fuss about?” when i started reading it… I had no idea.

Prodigy by Marie Lu

2016: 4/5 stars

I like it, but I felt like something was missing. There were also a few things that bothered me. Other than that, a great book and I really like June

The sea of tranquility by Katja Millay

2016: 5/5 stars

I loved this book. It meant so much to me. Of course there are some things that doesn’t really make sense to me, like everyone having a form of art that they excell in (basically just are the best in what the do). You can do several arts and be average in all of them, it doesn’t mean that you’re a worse person or not fitting for a book. Also the ending kind of ruined it a bit for me, the idea that everything had to come together to this almost normal-nice life for the main character Sunshine (dunno what to call her??). Just a little bit too intricate, it disappointed me. But other than that; WOW. I don’t know how to describe it. I struggled so much this week with hospital tests coming back after kind of giving up on them finding anything and then it being spmething other and worse than expected. You know that mix of hope, relief and grief? That’s what I felt and it’s all over this book too. Also books including piano is always a plus. 5 stars with a hint of doubt because of the ending.

Cinder by Marissa Meyer

2015: 5/5 stars

I LOVE IT – really not that much more to say. I just didn’t want it to end and when it did i actually walked around with it for the rest of the day. Just to keep the story with me I guess.

A cinderella cyberborg (part human part machine) named Cinder? And a mechanic? I love her. She’s perfect. Reminds me of Mercy Thompson (by Patricia Briggs), but that might be because she’s also a mechanic. I seem to have a thing for them. 

When I first heard of this book I wasn’t that optimistic because it sounded very sci-fi and all robots and no emotions, but it’s 
kind ofsci-fi with robots WITH emotions! Or programming faults that is. Iko is the best. She’s so cute for a robot. 

I don’t think this story could have been told much better. Absolutely the best cinderella version I have seen/read/heard ever. It’s so different. Cyborgs, robots, 
aliens, a plague and so much more. Extra point for being in Asia (New Beijing) and having a different kind of cinderella for once. And even if there are a lot of changes from the usual fairytale, you can still recognize the same elements. It still has a touch of magic. 

That said I have to add that I saw the plot twist long before it came. Like a few chapters in or something. It was pretty obvious, and it ruined it a little. However I’m still looking forward to reading the next book, Scarlet. Can’t wait to get back into this world. The book was just brilliant, kick-ass and adorable. I can’t get over it. And I’ve fallen head first for the prince. Never thought I would, but I did. 

Book Haul #2

I rarely buy books, compared to a lot of book blogs. But finally I’ve gathered enough recent buys. Also I just bullet-pointed the interesting parts to me of those synopsis because some make them way too long.

These shallow graves by Jennifer Donnelly

  • Mystery; main character’s dad is murdered and she investigates

A brief history of time by Stephen King

  • Physics <3<3

1Q84 by Haruki Murakami

  • I love Murakami’s writing usually
  • Magical realism ❤
  • Set in Tokyo
  • I cannot decipher everything that the synopsis says happen in this book, only that it follows a lot of people, including a writer, a cult, a private investigator, a bodyguard and a women’s shelter?? Is that right? Sounds like Murakami

The body in pain by Elaine Scarry

  • One of my goals of 2019 was to find out how to describe pain, which might sound strange, but makes sense I promise. This was the place to start, according to a lot of sources.

Ebooks:

In the Woods (Dublin Murder Squad #1) by Tana French

  • Set in Dublin
  • Murder investigation following a detective
  • Promising lots of mystery

Demons Lie (A Girl’s Guide To Witchcraft And Demon Hunting #1) by Sherry D. Ficklin

  • Main character out for revenge on mother’s murder
  • Killing demons
  • High school graduation a big thing??
  • Hinting at main character turning darker

A very large expanse of sea by Tahereh Mafi

  • Main character is a muslim girl who’s sixteen living in the US after 9/11 dealing with harassment

NetGalley:

Dutch Girl: Audrey Hepburn and World War II by Robert Matzen

  • About Audrey Hepburn during the Nazi occupation in Netherlands, which I’ve never considered
  • Parents was pro-nazi from what I see from the synopsis
  • Story of how she suceeded as a ballerina

How to Fracture a Fairy Tale by Jane Yolen

  • Rewritten fairy tales

Have you read any of these books? Or bought any other books you’re excited about?

The Truth About Keeping Secrets by Savannah Brown | Book Review

Pages: 336

Genre: young adult, lgbt characters

About the book

Sydney loses her dad abruptly in a car crash. He was a therapist, helping a lot of people. But with the job came keeping a lot of secrets. After the funeral June, a popular girl Sydney has never talked much to, starts to show interest and they become friends. Their sudden bond doesn’t make much sense to Sydney or anyone else. It’s a story about grief and how differently people deal with it, about friendship and relationships, and discovering who you are and what your limits are.

My thoughts

Rating out of five: four

I started out this book with high hopes and immediately loathing how slow it felt.. So far I’ve liked Savannah’s poetry, but while the writing in this book is direct and easy to follow, I didn’t like it overall. The book starts with a huge a loss. And if you’ve ever lost someone, you know that pain and emptiness – this book doesn’t described it particularly elegantly or extraordinarily – resulting in how a beginning that felt really bland. It wasn’t before I was halfway through the book that it started to really pick up.

When Savannah Brown stepped up the action, the writing, characters and mystery really came together. This book describes my first experience being drunk nearly perfectly, and I was laughing out loud. Probably because Sydney also likes to have much control, at least over herself. It’s in passages between characters where I really feel how Savannah is my age and a recent teenager. The questioning of sexuality. The use of technology and phones. It was all really well done.

It’s one of those books that is so difficult to pitch to someone without spoiling the plot, as it has mystery-vibes to it as Sydney tries to figure out who’s harassing her and what happened to her dad. I completely recommed it though! Be prepared to perhaps cry (like I did towards the end).


SPOILERS BELOW

Some particularly interesting parts:

  • The inclusion of a webside similar to the recently banned r/watchpeopledie was unexpected, obviously this protagonist becomes obsessed with the macabre as a coping strategy and she walks the reader through her thoughts around that, as well.
  • The relatable moment of an introvert being like “is she this touchy feely with everyone or am I special?” – it’s an issue.
  • The back and forth of whether Sydney’s view of June was something she had created in her head, on a pedestal, or if their relationship was much more real than that
  • Olivia seems like a very shitty friend?? Like I get that there’s some unreliable narration through Sydney’s eyes, but come on. She feels so realistic.
  • The out of body moment Sydney has when she watches the video of her dad was one of the better written parts and while it was harrowing to the character, it was really a moment I’ll remember in this book
  • A very satisfying, but still realistic ending!

Favourite quotes

“This was when I realized why, exactly, I got along with June, and why it was so easy to trust her: she didn’t treat grief like a problem to be solved, but a constant to be endured.”

“I’m worried that I’ve made you out in my head to be something that you’re not.’ June was silent for a moment, then said, in a small voice, ‘I’m worried I did the same thing for you. […} Like looking out of a window of a house I was locked inside.”

The Wicked Saints by Emily A. Duncan | Book Review

Pages: 400

Genre: young adult fantasy

Publish date: 2. April 2019

Synopsis

A girl who can speak to gods must save her people without destroying herself. A prince in danger must decide who to trust. A boy with a monstrous secret waits in the wings. Together, they must assassinate the king and stop the war.

In a centuries-long war where beauty and brutality meet, their three paths entwine in a shadowy world of spilled blood and mysterious saints, where a forbidden romance threatens to tip the scales between dark and light.

My thoughts

Rating out of five: four

I received a copy of this book through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

I read this book in one sitting and found it very entertaining and better than I expected. It’s more of a high fantasy than a lot of other young adult fantasy books, especially since it has a magic system tied to what’s seen as gods, something I already really like and hope to see more of.

The writing is fenomenal. It’s really what sold me this book already a few pages in. The dialogue is a bit worse at points, but for the most part it had enough humor and cleverness.

The problems I have with these books think I have a lot to do with the level the beginning was at, and the expectation it created in sense of style and progress. I really felt in the beginning that this book was well thought-through, with a vast world and great, complex characters. A minor problem, but one that irked me, was the names. Like why don’t make the names easier, when you chose to introduce so many places and characters at once, slavic-inspired or not. Like main characters are Malachiasz Czechowicz and Nadezha. Thinking more about this, I think it might also be a problem with the voice of the book chosen as very personal, because it’s young adult, and then Nadezha trying to give a bunch of information about this world as if it was knowledge she just gained. I get that it would’ve taken a lot more effort probably, but I feel that it can be done better with enough tweaking.

The big problem I had was the composition of the book and the plot in that it tried to do a lot. I usually never complain about this! But the introduction and reader’s connection with the characters, which turned out to be so interesting, was swallowed by the need to move on with the plot in the story. It succeeded in going straight into one life-and-death conflict, but then it did so again, without yet having given the slower moments in between where you get to know the characters. It was too obvious that the plot needed to progress at a fast pace, especially in how characters – especially Nadezha who is the “outsider” – suddenly puts together things they shouldn’t have been able to! It happens enough times that it became a big problem for me.

I would recommend giving it a try, because there’s things this book does really well, out-weighing what I see as the more awkward parts. Nadezha dealing with conflicts towards her gods and how the gods worked in this world was a favourite part of mine. Still, of the alternatives given to her towards the end, one seemed much less preferable than the others, and I wonder if that was like a flaw in how unbalanced the portrayals actually were or like a very personality based opinion. So if anyone has read the book – I would really like to discuss the Nadezha’s choices at the end!


In general, I liked this book and I am looking forward to reading the next book in the trilogy.

Kids/Teens Should Read More Than Young Adult Books

I interact and follow a lot of book blogs that review solely young adult, I review a lot of young adult books as well. First: Who should read young adult books? Anyone can read young adult books. To get that out of the way first. Well, probably not six year olds, but you get it. I think no one should be ashamed of it. I still got problems with young adult literature though.

My experience as a kid, growing up as a major reader

I’m 20 years old, for reference. When I was 10 and very tired of children’s (now considered middle grade) books, young adult books weren’t a thing in my country – Norway – or in the big library I spent a lot of time in.

I started reading adult books from 10 years old. I loved crime stories and started reading reviews trying to steer away from the novels with graphic sex. I’ve since started reading more young adult literature, apparent from this blog, but for a long time I could find literature on the adult shelves that spoke to my interests and learned me a lot about the world that I wouldn’t otherwise, not through young adult fiction. Not that it might not exist in the young adult universe, somwhere, but that it’s not popular or promoted, and teens won’t have the same access to it. Reading outside of the young adult genre for a kid makes it so their interest aren’t limited to what’s available.

Literature increase empathy, because you see the world through different eyes and read about experiences you wouldn’t have otherwise. Of course, young adult novels does this as well, but the books published is stagnant sometimes, too caught up in what’s popular. What young adult novels are published are very trend-based. Remember the utopia craze? Divergent, Matched by Ally Condie, Hunger Games, Uglies by Scott Westerfeld. Right now there’s so many books in the style of “A court of thorns and roses”. They might teach you something, but the protagonist voice in all those books and most young adult novels I still read has this same tone. I think diverse voices and representation is important and can better this and that the focus on diversity in the young adult genre is right now growing a lot, which is great. But it doesn’t change the fact that many authors want a protagonist the young adult reader can relate to, because it’s easier to draw them in and the best way to make it so is a “Mary Sue” character or just one that is the average teen of the group their trying to get to, without too much destinction. (See Darren Shan mentioned below for exceptions).

The adult fiction to avoid at all cost

Here’s the books you don’t let your kid read: Game of Thrones. There’s probably more out there, but there’s no other book that I like regret reading that I should’ve been warned against. Like I wouldn’t let a kid or teen read erotica, that’s what fanfiction written by fellow teens are for. Avoid anything that has sexual violence, because it can be written badly and isn’t something you’d want to expose anyone to through literature for the first time.

Remember Hunger Games? How is YA violence different?

Loved that book, it was very entertaining. It was so hated by parents at the beginning, which is totally understandable, but it really did a few things right. The messages of the first book was through relationships and being cunning, things that could’ve been done in a less sensationalized game of killing kids. Things that probably would’ve been done in a way that made more sense if it was adult book. Still, it introduced teens to the consequences of violence and poverty. Yes, the world-building is simplified with factions, but Katniss sees the poverty she comes from, with people dying and then the riches of the place she gets to. They topple the government, a thing that also would’ve made more sense if they included the “adult” things of actual politics and realistic military strategies. Still, there were propaganda, and Katniss feeling icky about it. About betrayal, and political games and trust. Few young adult books show even that much of moral dilemmas, but it took a lot of dead children to do so and still it’s read by young adults everwhere. I don’t get publishing sometimes. Also, the message seems to get lost in all the sensationalized violence, the movies really fucked up that way.

Fairytales has done it for hundreds of years

I feel like many won’t agree with me, at this point. So let me give you a very much researched topic that I think compares very well – fairytales. Fairytales and folklore has been told to children, introducing them to the more gruesome details of life like death and betrayal through a more magical or fantastical world, making it interesting and not so much of a huge lecture of how to be careful. There’s a lot more reputable scholars out there than this one blog is going to put together today, so I’ll just give some experience –

As a norwegian and kid fascinated with literature, I grew up on the original Grimm’s fairytales. Along with the americanized Disney, kind of. In the Hansel and Gretel I was read as a kid, the kids were left in the forest to die/fend for themselves because their parents don’t know what else to do during a famine. Cinderella’s step sisters are ordered by the evil stepmother to cut her heel, the other one her toes, to fit into the glass shoes, the blood dripping and exposing them as liars. Little Red Riding Hood’s grandma is cut out from the wolf’s stomach, in a really grotesque way. The violence isn’t just removed in other versions, the needs of the characters and the outcome is completely changed! The cruel actions of some humans aren’t showcased. The risks are smaller. The courage less great because of it. There’s a big difference between Cinderella just not getting the prince, and continuing having to work like a slave in an abusive household.

Most young adult novels Disney-fy the content in the same way, and it just removes a lot of the moral components along with the risks.

Who decides what is YA?

I would like to know the answer to that question if someone has it. The books aimed at younger readers that I loved as a kid was like books by Darren Shan and I still remember being grossed out and fascinated by his demon series (Demonata) where the main character in one of the first scene of the first book gets back at his sister by laying the intestines of a rat in the hair towel of his older sister while she’s in the shower. It was just so different from anything that I would ever do and the thought process behind the character was fascinating, it was one of the first time I was looking into a psychology that weren’t anywhere near me. This is an example of a technically young adult book that might be too much for your average kid, but it’s really good horror. IT’S MUCH LESS VIOLENT THAN HUNGER GAMES, BUT MORE FUCKED UP? Between this type of book and Hunger Games I feel the young adult genre never quite figured out it’s limits. This book isn’t promoted openly as young adult any longer, but my library still has it shelved at so and it certainly was considered it when published in 2013. 300 Goodreads users agree.

In conclusion

I love fairytales so so much. What I hope people are getting from this post is that 1) keep kids and young adults away from books with sexual violence 2) let young adults choose what they want to read 3) as a teen it was personally very boring to read what adults thought I should care about (romance and ponies) and I would be a worse (well, less empathic) person if I did, a hundred percent. Young adult books are incredibly important for so many reasons, but it’s beneficial to not limit someone to just that age group because it’s somehow “safer”, especially when that’s very debatable.

I’m not a parent. I completely understand that one might want to shield your kids and teens from certain things. But this post is brought to you by me realizing several of my fellow 20 year olds have never had a person close to them die, or dealt with loss. Which is great for them, but how are they going to learn how to grieve if the first person that dies is the one they care about the most? There’s certain things I believe on a fundamental level children has a right to know about, to not be kept from them to protect an “innocence”, because as a parent that’s not protecting them in the long run or if powers outside of anyone’s control create tragedies. I don’t think that needs to just come from literature, but it’s a great way for the teens to familiarize themselves with difficult themes on their own. Which is lost when you show violence without the consequences or any action without the moral component!

The Wicked King by Holly Black | Spoilery Book Review

The folk of the air #2, the sequel to The Cruel Prince

Pages: 340

Genre: young adult fantasy

Synopsis

You must be strong enough to strike and strike and strike again without tiring. The first lesson is to make yourself strong.

After the jaw-dropping revelation that Oak is the heir to Faerie, Jude must keep her younger brother safe. To do so, she has bound the wicked king, Cardan, to her, and made herself the power behind the throne. Navigating the constantly shifting political alliances of Faerie would be difficult enough if Cardan were easy to control. But he does everything in his power to humiliate and undermine her even as his fascination with her remains undiminished.

When it becomes all too clear that someone close to Jude means to betray her, threatening her own life and the lives of everyone she loves, Jude must uncover the traitor and fight her own complicated feelings for Cardan to maintain control as a mortal in a Faerie world.

My thoughts

Rating out of five: three

Usually I try to keep reviews with minimal important spoilers for plot points. This review is filled with spoilers, because it’s a sequel and I find it nearly impossible to discuss it without them. Here’s your warning.

I didn’t like this book as much as I thought I would. On one side I really like Jude as a character, but she didn’t feel consistent through the book. The plot also felt a bit too straight-forward compared to the first book. The worst offender is the world-building, which feels more like a sliver of “A court of thorns and roses” by Sarah J. Mavas, without the awesomeness that is politics of separate courts and Velaris, than actually made by Holly Black, at this point.

The romance. It’s there through the whole book, constantly being teased, the chemistry is there, but definitely with some weird power and trust dynamic that Jude and Cardan had to figure out. I really like the enemies to lovers storyline in general. In this book I felt it at points were too much spelled out, instead of like convincing me they were attracted to each other. The he hates you and so he loves you more for it felt too artificial.

The ending. From reading other reviews, I think this is what seals the deal for those who really like this book. I saw the ending coming too early. I didn’t see every twist of it, like the Ghost, which was nice. This might be because of my view of the romance all along and how I really didn’t trust the character that is Cardan would to give up an ounce of power willingly. The moment Jude gave up her control of him, I threw my hands up in the air in defeat. So I definitely had interest in which way it would go, if she would go in the trap. The someone you trust have already betrayed you was too much of a hint as well.

The characters. I love characters, especially protagonists, that aren’t just good. It was what made me love the first book. I felt Jude was inconsistent in this sequel, because the sides of her that the plot needs are what is played up in each scene. Like the girl is suddenly a master tactic, then her self-esteem is low, then she needs to be something else for the chemistry to Cardan to work, then she needs to order him around and at the same time feel low and human enough that she would stay and get ridiculed. A character can of course change roles, but it got to be a problem for me. Again it comes down to authors like Sarah J. Maas who has done this “elf pretend they’re evil” thing so much better already. There were opportunities I wish the book would’ve taken instead, roads it went down in the first book, like exploring struggles related to Jude going darker and not wanting to give up power, instead of her talking scared to herself about it. It just further shows the different view she has of herself and the master-mind position the others are constanly giving her in a way that doesn’t make sense.

I really did like one thing in particular – Jude having second thoughts about Oak and just the dilemma of shielding a child. Wondering if that makes the child more likely to grow up less empathic or not understanding consequences. Or like Jude puts it: “Now growing used to sugary cereal and a life without treachery.”

In general it seemed like this book lacked smooth transitions through plot points and could’ve had more well-rounded characters and world with more editing and thought put into it. Especially if like more place was given to exploring moral dilemmas, or going down the road of Jude thinking in accordance with her more ruthless actions, turning a bit darker for those she loved or to protect Oak. I feel like Holly Black usually has a high quality when it comes to characters and world-building, so when I wasn’t quite feeling the plot, these things started to annoy me.

My feelings reading this book: it was entertaining, but also annoying at points, could’ve been done better

Would recommend it if you liked “The cruel prince”, but be aware that it might not do the same things for you and go into it with lower expectations.

Girl Mans Up by M-E Girard | Audiobook Review

Pages: 400

Time audiobook: 9 hours

Genre: young adult, lgbt

Synopsis

All Pen wants is to be the kind of girl she’s always been. So why does everyone have a problem with it? They think the way she looks and acts means she’s trying to be a boy—that she should quit trying to be something she’s not. If she dresses like a girl, and does what her folks want, it will show respect. If she takes orders and does what her friend Colby wants, it will show her loyalty. But respect and loyalty, Pen discovers, are empty words. Old-world parents, disintegrating friendships, and strong feelings for other girls drive Pen to see the truth–that in order to be who she truly wants to be, she’ll have to man up.

Audiobook review

The narrator is really good, during the dramatic scenes especially. Personally I would’ve chosen the physical book because I thought the writing of the plot dragged on and 30% in I was already listening on 1.5x speed to get through it. But I can recommend the audiobook to anyone who prefers that.

My thoughts

Rating out of five: three

The concept and plot is really important and good, it’s about the main character Penn’s struggle about gender and having to respond to a lot of unwelcome questions and harassment about it. Among friends, classmates, teachers and parents who insists that she should act and look more like a girl. Penn is a butch lesbian and the parts where she’s figuring out her attraction to girls and going into her first relationship are so cute. It very well balanced.

My problem with the book is the writing. This book doesn’t need to be 9 hours or 400 pages long. So many details are included, in the style of me walking into a room and describing what I see, instead of focusing on a couple things that give characteristics and letting the picture paint itself for the reader. The book is marketed as young adult, but it feels like it’s for a younger audience. The main character feels younger than 16 as well, the age isn’t mentioned before much later in the book. The conflicts show themselves to be much darker than first thought, but that disconnect between how Penn talks about her challenges in the beginning and the end was really confusing. She goes from talking about conflicts more suited among 13 year olds, to serious harassment. I get that it’s young adult for the darker parts and family conflicts, but then I think the author should’ve made Penn and the friend-group feel more grown up. It still has a lot of good examples and talks about loyalty, friendship, gender and the struggles of not being accepted by family.

I’ve seen readers complain on the “girl mans up” theme and actually complain about how horrific people are acting and bullying each other. That’s the only wrong opinion you can have about this book, as the book brings up bad to horrifying examples of friendships and manipulation and how the characters try to keep each other down. The conversations around that are the excellent parts of this book!

What I felt reading this book: really felt for Penn even though she continued to make wrong choices (she’s got heart though) and anger at everyone who has to deal with this bullying and constant harassment if they don’t clearly fit into “acceptable” gender or sexuality. and how bad unaccepting families make everything.

The Poet X by Elizabeth Acevedo | Review

Pages: 370

Genre: Poetry, young adult, lgbt characters

Synopsis


A young girl in Harlem discovers slam poetry as a way to understand her mother’s religion and her own relationship to the world. 

Xiomara Batista feels unheard and unable to hide in her Harlem neighborhood. Ever since her body grew into curves, she has learned to let her fists and her fierceness do the talking.

But Xiomara has plenty she wants to say, and she pours all her frustration and passion onto the pages of a leather notebook, reciting the words to herself like prayers—especially after she catches feelings for a boy in her bio class named Aman, who her family can never know about. With Mami’s determination to force her daughter to obey the laws of the church, Xiomara understands that her thoughts are best kept to herself.

So when she is invited to join her school’s slam poetry club, she doesn’t know how she could ever attend without her mami finding out, much less speak her words out loud. But still, she can’t stop thinking about performing her poems.

Because in the face of a world that may not want to hear her, Xiomara refuses to be silent.
 

The audiobook

The narrator was fantastic, some of the best I’ve ever heard. And of course she was, I thought as I realized towards the end it was the author and slam poet Elizabeth Acevedo narrating the audiobook as well. I fully recommend listening to it! As the book is written in verse/poems (hard to say having only listened to it), it’s “only” three and a half hours as well, completely worth it.

My thoughts

Rating out of five: four

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It’s a strong and beautiful story of a quiet girl finding her voice, letting out all the thoughts she’s not been allowed to tell and finding good friends, through slam poetry. She’s growing and finding her way to deal with romance, family, religion and need for a bit of freedom. 

It’s obvious reading/listening to the book that the author knows what she’s writing. She’s a slam poet, she’s seen people find their voice through it most likely. The way she tells the story is stunning, from the first page I was sold. This is the way to tell that story. 

There’s not much else for me to say about this book, which is rare. It’s more young adult novel than I realized going into it, and I would absolutely recommend giving it to young girls. I became a bit frustrated in the middle part of the book, when Xiomara wasn’t doing poetry out of fear, and nothing moved along. Had to realize the story isn’t something unexpected – the plot is only going one way – but it’s still important and told great. What really brought me in again was Xiomara and the mom coming to the height of their conflict, and how impactful the writing was in that moment. The ending was very wholesome, setting the tone of the whole book’s message. It’s so tough being a kid with little control over your own life, trying to find it as you’re becoming older, with opinions of your own. This book conveyed that.